Who am I ? Who do I WANT to be? What do I want to do with my life?
These are all questions I ask myself on a daily basis. Questions I frequently get asked by friends and family. But the truth is.. I don’t have a clue.
After I graduated High School in 2013, I felt so lost. I didn’t have a career path, or a big enough interest in any subject to apply for collages. So I thought I would just take a year off, work and save some money until I figured it out. Well, one year turned into two, and two years turned into three, and now I’m going on my 4th year post high school, and STILL don’t know what I want to do with my life.
For the longest time, I envied those who ‘had it all figured out’. Everyone around me is getting Degree’s, and graduating from their programs. As happy as I was to see my friends making these accomplishments, it started to make me feel sad, like I was behind, stuck, lost. It took time, and finding this quote(see below), for me to realize it’s okay to not have it figure out yet.
It got me thinking of ‘my clock, my time’.. and what I’m going to do with it.
I am the manager and buyer for a local clothing store. I have been saving since my first pay check, three years ago. I wasn’t sure what I was even saving for when I first started, and my mind has changed a couple times along the way. But since I took a few years to think about things, I have decided to finally live out one of my dreams.
I bought a 1983 Dodge Ram Camper Van, and will be setting out to live the #Vanlife this Spring. This was a huge deal for me. Buying this van was the first thing I’ve ever done for myself, the first step I’ve taken in starting my future. It’s not schooling, or that ‘dream job’ like I once imagined. It’s something so much more than that. It’s a journey to figuring out who I am, who I want to be, and what I want to do with this life I’ve been given.